My thinking time

I love, I love, I love. Despite.

Today while I swim, I think. My mind wander as usual. Normally it goes to my heart and soul, or what is important at that time. I love and can't forget. My love is resilient. Understanding and forgiving. But I cannot love more than I love myself. As I will resent if I become smaller or lesser than who I am.

So today is acceptance. And I resolve to work on area of my life.

My exercise journey

I have never been a fit child when I was young. When I thought of dismissing the idea of me liking physical education, I fall back to stereotype that any "smart" kid will likely have weakness and weakness is often a weak fragile body. Well, I am only an average person. which means if I want be fit and strong I need to train.

In my twenties, I discovered yoga, yoga and pilates and started joining the courses of yoga and improved my posture. I discovered I could train my body and withstand the poses from yoga, starting from gentle yoga, progressing to hatha, and asthanga. It is generally easier to go to class regularly, although I have proven that you can cycle through classes and you don't have to stick to a practice. That might have taken a longer route with my method, but I found something that work for me. I found that building classes progressively, you have to work it out for every class. That means stretch and find that pain in the poses, and rest throughout the week. Your body will indeed respond and become progressively limber and fitter.

Yoga works to improve flexibility, which means you will often improve your range of movement as your yoga practice progress. I also found pilates. Pilates is the class you take if you want to exercise your core and you become stronger through pilates practice and have a beautiful abs.

I also learnt how to swim in my twenties. Then I started swimming regularly in early thirties, especially breaststroke. I have naturally small hip compared to the rest of my body, (it's apple body type - voluptous but with slimmer hip). Swimming once a week 20 laps, helped me achieve more proportional body shape. My chin is slimmer and my hip wider, so as a result my body is now even much more proportional. Of course if you swim regularly, here is a couple of tips.

1. Swim outdoor if you can
Swimming indoor means better protection from sun, winds, and rain. You can always swim regardless of weather. That means no excuse to skip too. However, indoor pool is often saturated with chlorine which is harsh to your body and hair. Chemical from outdoor swimming pool has the chance to evaporate and oxidise with natural sun light. Plus, if you swim in the sea it is natural.

2. SPF protection is important
Protect your skin regardless of whether you swim in sea or in the pool. Always wear waterproof Sun Protection skin. For beach and outdoor sport, SPF 50 is the minimum recommended factor. Appy and reapply often and with enough coverage.

3. Shower or rinse before swimming
If you saturate your hair and skin with fresh water, your body has less chance of absorbing the chlorine water.

4. Wear swim cap
Protect your hair from regular soak of pool water. It is more hygiene too. Your hair might become brittle and dry from regular exposure to chlorine. You can apply oil or chlorine naturalizer too to help protect your hair underneath the cap.

5. Shower immediately after swim
Wash your face, body, and hair. Rinse with fresh water including your suit and googles. If your swim suit and googles can be damaged easily from regular use in the water, imagine the damage to your hair.

Gratitude journal

3 things I am grateful for:
1. Meeting with partner Avanade and Accenture went very productive.
2. Discussion with the other hiring manager was very productive and result in a good plan for hiring.
3. My team is filled, my best candidate accepted.
4. Good 1:1 conversations with my directs, peers, and my manager and skip.
5. Good conversations with my HR partners. Get to know new people.
6. Come out of my shell to confront my fear and feel relieved of my burden of fearing to hurt other people’s feeling. Those are precious to me. And I am taking care of myself.
7. Stop withdrawing and found the courage to write a reply note thanking people to be in my life in 2018.
8. Thankful that this has been a super wonderful and productive week.

Relationship Advice

Listening podcast, of Relationship Advice with guest speaker Dr Alexandra Solomon.

A great place to start is to examine our own experiences and original childhood and examine what affects us, what we bring to the table for the relationship, and what we want to carry forward. Tip to start is to see during our childhood how do our original family how I handle conflict and how I handle closeness. Relationship is about feel good and getting along, but also about conflict and those closeness.

Sometimes our wound and our partner's wound overlap. We are often attracted to the partner who challenges us in that very heart of our wound - the relationship is like the dance, navigating the dance.

The best thing is to stay curious and learnt about our partner, our partner see the view, and stay curious to see and proactively understand how partner react to the situation. Sometimes when tough times, we just want things to change so the pain goes away. To uncover it, having a partner willing to ask and be curious help, but couples' therapy is very useful. Dose of couple therapy is useful to better understand our pattern and how we deal with each other - recommended when we decide to live together, when we got married, when we have first baby, when the kid starts elementary school, when we raise teenagers, etc. Being married is a dynamic thing, expectations change circumstances change.

When do we walk away? When we have partner who is not willing to work on the relationship and work through the issues. Love humbles people.

Keep the gratitude journal.
Advice to newlyweds: gratitude to our partner, love to have you in my life, everyday.