My Golden Life

Sometimes things happen in your life that prompts reflection. This week is the last week before I rejoined the workforce. As I binge-watch the Kdrama My Golden Life from 2018.. I am touched by the struggles of ordinary people, of the feeling of injustice, unfair life, and humiliation of daily struggles when you have to feel struggles every day without the space to breathe. I am also reminded of every day you need to take step forward, at least to try, to be aware of your purpose, remember the passage of time, grow yourself, and seek happiness. Every characters in the drama is depicted in its nuance, not just black-and-white. Everyone is not born perfect, or good in every way. The characters however, like in any good drama, would grow, learn from their mistakes, and tackle with resilience, hard work, and passion.

This week is the last week of my sabbatical. I have come to enjoy the carefree life, and seek happiness in studying and growing my mind, which I discover give me a lot of joy. I am stretching myself in a new role, in a new company, with quite likely a different culture. But I am ready for that. I want to give it my best shot. The best is yet to come!

Update: March 15.

After marathon session, I finally finished up 52 episodes of this family drama. The gripping story lines, as well as some shocking cliff-hanger at the end of each episodes ensure that the audience is hooked. I watched the KBS award show and learnt that the series won many awards including the screenwriter, lead actress, and the lead actors of both the male protagonist and the father. Plus it was nominated for top new actor and other supporting actress as well for the sister and the mother. I do think that the second half of the show was not as good as the first half, possibly contributed or contributing to the health issues that the screenwriter experienced during award show in the new year of 2017. 

I am taking away a lot of the struggles of the standard people. But also the character development shows that people can change, grow, and be happy by realizing and leading their own golden life. The achievement, big company, large salary all contribute to a secure life, however if achieving all these is costing mental sanity, values, as well as family, then it is time to re-examine your life and have a truly heartfelt conversation with people whom might be selfish and hurt you. 

It makes me happy to just watch the simple relationship of the youngest brother and the youngest child of the Choi family versus the complicated and heart-aching relationship that the lead actor and actress have. Although you wholeheartedly support them, and the complexity makes the plot, sometimes simplicity is... well, just simple, pure and enjoyable.

Watching the middle-aged couples, I do crave for the longevity of relationship, when you grow old and hopefully wiser by sharing your lives together. It is not always a guarantee that you will lead a sweet life together, but I think the odds and likelihood of that happening is decidedly higher than when you are single.

Leap of Faith

I dreamed that I was a little girl, standing on the edge of precipitance, staring into wide expense of bright lights dotted with greeneries, buildings, houses, and green field of the earth. A wide unknown yet it beckons.

Since young, I have always been terrified yet slightly excited at the prospect of a jump. When I leap and my feet couldn't find a firm foundation. The feeling of not being grounded without a safety net.

This is the feeling that I have right now. When finally, the reality, that I am leaving a company that I have toiled in for 11 years, sinks in. Acceptance of reality brings calm and peaceful state of mind.

I guess I had still be in denial and negotiation. But finally, today, the day before New Year's eve and my last day of employment, I accept this reality.

It is scary to not feeling like I have a safety net. That everything under my feet is unclear and unstable. Yet I am also equally terribly excited, and terribly nervous of the prospect of what there is to come.

Too long that I have felt cozy and safe. It is time again to leap into the unknown. And grab the best opportunities that I encounter. Only this time, I know what I want the best. And while I am on the way there, I am going to enjoy every moments of this journey of life.

 

Cleaning up my blog

It's approx 16 days to new year 2015. Time to do check in in my whereabout and also clean up some blogs.

Here's what I posted with respect to 2013, 2014 "achievements":

So, in 2013, I didn't go to Egypt, Latin America, nor Switzerland. However, I resolved to do my sabbatical and I got a healthy outcome. In year 2013 I was also promoted and became the regional lead in my job. And had 2 almost relationships that broke my hearts but help me grow.

Year 2013 "Heartbreak Year"

Year 2014 "Sabbatical and Balance year"

Year 2014 is best reset year from mental and spiritual balance. I regain my natural self and learned so much about life and balance.

Family holiday to bandung

Here is my super-long guide based on my last trip just for you guys. 

Quite useful and comprehensive guide about the city here: http://wikitravel.org/en/Bandung

Famous restaurants:

• Kampung Daun - means Leaf Village. Best time to go is Friday night. Service can be slow, but ask for Pondokan that is. Very taste bbq fish, and local food. The weather is cool and nice.
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• Rumah Strawberry - pick your own straberry, but the highlight is the local nasi liwet package. Very fragrant with friend or bbq chicken, etc.
• The Valley, is a restaurant in a hotel that is the top of the cliff. At lunch, you can see the cliff overseeing the Bandung city. At night should be pretty romantic :) the price is steep though, means like Singapore level pricing. The way there is also very scary and steep, an interesting experience, as you follow narrow road among the villas. #2 The Valley
  
• And then Warung Bu Tris, Braga Permai, Rm Ampera, are a couple of wellknown quality and name.

For Shopping Cihampelas, I feel by staying there at night you’ll be able to find some interesting things. Other than Cihampelas:- there are some unique factory outlets along Jalan Riau with better quality clothing and shirts. Heritage is the most famous one, it's housed within an historical building. And there is a couple others side by side along the walking distance. Conveniently, there are snacks pop-up stores just outside to do some local snack shopping. Check out the “branded bags” section and let me know what you think hoo hoo

tomorrow I'm going to be back to work (almost)

pooof, my sabbatical goes so quickly. I enjoy them so much.

Tomorrow is Sunday, the day before I am scheduled to be back to work. My holiday has been fulfilling, enriching experience in my life. I went with the purpose of trying to get a sense of my worklife. I concluded, with the result of having a broad perspective to my life. My whole life, into the real accurate, non-delusional, as well as balanced view. What a life fulfilling time.

I treasure the time, and I thank God for giving me directions and tips. Did I miss those when I was busy, or simply that I was too busy I didn't have the peace and patience to listen. My twenties blur past me with a blindingly quick pace, where I achieved so much in my career and wealth, but my personal fulfillment has been standing still, or crawl at snail pace.

Thank you for enabling this Sabbatical, and I am glad I had the courage and foresight to take this.

I am going to miss having this time.

As my last Saturday in mid sept2014, I was watching this vegan chocolate cake. with link here.

Whatcha doing D minus 6

I am reading, doing lots of relaxation with the hope to jolt my vacation plan to life.... >_>

Reading about saga seed yesterday, after helping mom pick up some of these hard little red seeds that are common in the singapore's tropical weather. do you know that it's popular and some people use it for its association with love?

today reading about evernote vs OneNote my favorite note taking app. While getting ready my laptop (Surface RT) for the first time for my travel. I downloaded all the books that I have in kindle account (it has Kindle app) and install a couple of games and toolkits (like Music and offline Photo sharing with note taking and some online storage accounts). So I am set.

Why People are Selfish

I am sitting here, working overnight on what I believe to be my last Fiscal Year closing as my role. I am committed and dedicated, and feeling increasingly naïve.

I felt so foolish for wanting to dedicate my effort and thought I will be happy to "support" my colleagues in ramping them up to be doing well in the role. I am foolishly thought that I would be rewarded with recognition, gratitude, and thankfulness.

It turned out after all the hardwork, my personal time, efforts, thoughts, and energy put into building the people, what I got is nothing but a generic, thank you everyone in the team (including those that barely contributed to your onboarding!) by the person whom I onboarded the most, and plus I spent all my thoughts planning about her 6-months maternity leave. I'm feeling disappointed and a bit bitter. I suppose I was naïve, I thought it would turn out not as what I expected. I don't know what I expect, but certainly I am vindicated and again proven that people are selfish. The level of immaturity and flattery that go around certainly continue to astound me. When shall you ever learn, dear? I can't help but to hope.

I suppose I am insecure myself but at least I am mature enough to feel and know that the world doesn't resolve just around me.

I just felt I'm discriminated against. Just because I'm the youngest in the team, and I am few years younger than my teammate, I truly feel that she treat me differently ever since she discovered that I am years younger than her even though I have more seniority. Some people are just shallow and self-serving.

Why am I so sad. Don't I know this already. It still hurts. Very much like a betrayal.

I am glad I have my summer plan sorted out.

Nepali Visa

From :http://www.kopanmonastery.com/about_info.html

Nepali Visas

You will need a valid visa to enter Nepal. This is now available at the airport for a stay of up to three months for most nationalities (Please check with the nearest Nepal Embassy for special regulations applicable for your country of origin). It can be extended for up to five months within one calendar year. The visa needs to be paid in cash US$ on arrival at the airport. Bring US$ in cash for this purpose. Also needed is a passport size photo.
The cost of the visa:
15 days = 20 US$
1 month = 40 US$
3 months = 100 US$

Preparation for my 6-week Break

I have been asked often, what's my prep for the break.

I am feeling luxuriously and blessed to have the opportunity to take this break. I have no clue what and where I am going but I am trying to shake away the feeling of being forced to pack stuff on my agenda.

I am thinking of Nepal. some sort of meditation week. Also some vigorous activity.
So toying with ideas of taking 1 week quiet meditation thru Nepal or Bhutan - then head over to Europe/Peru for backpacking, simple and bare stuff of travel. So no 5-star, going back to basic.

My initial research for a place brought me to Nepal, searching Buddhist meditation classes brought some link:

• http://lawudo.com/retreat.html = a simple place that is family place where you are supposed to sleep in sleeping bag in winter, and fetch your own water from the spring.Charges 1500Nepal rupees- per day / around US20
• http://www.buddhist.ca/kopan_monastery_tibetan_buddhist_meditation_retreat.html = staying in dormitary offering beginner intro class to meditation. Charges 120USD for 10 day, US80 for 7 days.
• http://www.kopanmonastery.com/about_info.html = Monastery that accept one-month and three-month programme. USD460 for 1-month program.